My senior year of high school has now started. My summer was filled with work at a boy scout camp as a lifeguard. (Yes, I am a girl who worked at a boy scout camp.) This was very enjoyable for me, but that isn't what I really want to tell you about right now.
Right now, I'm am feeling overwhelmed. Last Tuesday I stayed up late doing homework. Wednesday I woke up with a cold. I'm not quite back up to 100% yet.
As I came in the door after getting home from weights and conditioning today, I felt a surge of grief as my mom told me that my friend in Mexico had her visa application turned down by the U.S. embassy because she was too much of a "risk." From their standpoint, I understand. She doesn't have any communication with her biological family, and her adoptive family hasn't officially adopted her because her biological family won't let them! From a technical standpoint, and on paper, she doesn't have anything that would keep her from overstaying her visa in the U.S.
From the standpoint of her friend she has a loving family and many friends in Mexico that she would go back to. She would not deliberately try to do anything illegal, because that would defy God, and I know that she has made her purpose to honor God.
When I checked my e-mail, there was an e-mail from the same friend's mom. Discussing prayer requests for their family, because they recently suffered the death of one of their little boys. This is the same boy who is in my picture for this blog. He died from complications to a necessary heart surgery. Read more about that here.
Are you beginning to understand my feeling of being overwhelmed? I feel like no matter what I do, it's going to suck(or have a vacuuming effect, if you prefer that terminology) , because I'm so overcome by grief for this little boy. I miss everyone in Mexico, and sometimes it feels as if my heart will break because it hurts so bad. I also see the purpose behind days such as these. These are the days that I go through prayerfully. These are the days that I come home, with eyes full of tears, and study my Bible while listening to praise music. These are the days that I feel the Lord sustaining me. These are the days that I have to remember the Lord.
These are the days that I remember the Lord. These are the days that enable to more fully enjoy and appreciate the good days. These are the days that help me keep an eternal perspective, remembering that God is with me through it all, and, in the end, I'll see all of my friends who are followers of Christ again, for a much longer time than I could ever see them in this world.
These are the days that I remember the Lord. These are the days that enable to more fully enjoy and appreciate the good days. These are the days that help me keep an eternal perspective, remembering that God is with me through it all, and, in the end, I'll see all of my friends who are followers of Christ again, for a much longer time than I could ever see them in this world.
Surely God is my help; the Lord is the one who sustains me.
Psalm 54:4
